We've all heard the saying "God will never give us more than we can handle", but is that really true? What about all the people who have suffered through famine, hurricanes, Tsunami, or earthquakes, did God think they were the right people for those situations? Because I would say those are just the things that people can't handle! Are these horrible things that happen (more often then I would like to read about) a testimony to how these people are living their lives? Do these things happen for us to question how we are living our life?
I can't and won't believe that to be true. I would say that for those that aren't directly affected it gives us great sadness for those suffering and makes us appreciate our lives more. Good people suffer just like bad people and that's a fact.
It's only Wednesday and already its been kind of a doozy. I think hearing the news of my friend being diagnosed with breast cancer, finding out my mom's good friend passed away at 57 and almost identical to how my mother passed away and now my sister finding a lump on her breast makes me think how precious life really is and how fast things can change.
I think when you have experienced extreme pain in your life you question if there is a God, I know I did. When my mother died I never knew there could ever be pain like that. Even after 8 years it doesn't get any easier. I think your mind has a different way of dealing with each day. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of my mother or of how our lives would be if she were still here. It hurts, it hurts like hell. No one can tell you how if feels because we all experience pain differently.
My girlfriend had surgery yesterday morning and from what I understand the operation went well. Right now no news is good news. My sister went in and had an ultrasound. The spot that she is worried about didn't show up on the ultrasound. It might just mean calcification on her breast which could mean just that. They want her to come back in about a month and have another ultrasound and mammogram. For now we thank God there wasn't anything and just keep on keeping on!
Yesterday I called up a friend that works in Mammography and asked if she would like to see my breasts. We both laughed but I filled her in on events happening around me and she said to come on in.
I won't know anything for a week but I'm not worried. Why? I guess its because I believe in God. Even though I am still trying to figure out the reason my mother had to have Cancer and die so young I can't be mad at the big guy upstairs. I know she wouldn't want me to be.
I'm into quotes lately but have no idea who said this one. It just makes sense.
God didn't promise days without pain, laughter without sorrow, nor sun without rain. But he did promise strength for the day, comfort for the tears and light for the way.
Thank you to everyone who sent prayers for my friend and if you could throw in a few for my sister and my mother's friends two boys, I would really appreciate it!